Happenings

The past weeks happenings have certainly been interesting ones. My partner and I have been fixing up our car, getting new tires, and doing general maintenance. As well as fixing a couple of problems; including a massive crack in the radiator. I learned how to solder big things. I have only ever done electronic soldering before, so this was really interesting.

I have also been having next door neighbor problems! I forgot that helping people is a crime. My partner and I helped the 86 year old lady next door, and ever since we have had one drama after another with her husband, and daughter. It went to the extent of having to call the police last week. I don't understand why some people are like this. I think respect has gone out the window.

Speaking of lack of respect; My partners eldest boy turned up at our place on Friday night, on his motorcycle, with learners plates, and proceeded to pull a beer from is jacket and drink it.
I couldn't believe it! Not only didn't he have any respect for his father, but he had no respect for the fact that we don't drink. Nor the fact that it is illegal for a sixteen year old to drink, or to ride a motorcycle on "L's" with any alcohol in his/her system. He had no comprehension of how he could kill someone or himself doing this.
He's normally a good boy, and I certainly don't want to put him down in anyway. I just don't understand where the lack of respect comes from. It seems that this type of behavior is common place among so many people these days.
What has happened to having respect for yourself and others? Has the school system crushed this from our kids as well now?

Self Corruption

So much for the last couple of days. I got caught out in the rain and since then I have been really unwell. I am feeling a little better today so I thought I should come and write down some of the things in my head.

My Writing
I often get disappointed about my writing. I always think it could be so much more; that I could put things in a more accurate, descriptive and or thoughtful way. Often I don't feel like I have said what I `wanted to say'. I have been thinking about this problem, and I believe that there are two things that cause me to feel this way. These two problems certainly effect other areas of my life and not just my writing, yet today I just want to look at my writing.

Firstly I'm a perfectionist, and everything I do is not perfect, in fact nothing I do lives up to the expectation I place upon it. This is such a flaw in my thinking. I don't treat anyone else this way. I don't expect anything from anyone. Yet of myself I expect unreasonable and often impossible things.
I need to start treating everything I do as a learning experience! and stop trying to reach unreachable ideals. As this attitude only leads to disappointment, due to either not completing the task at all, or not being happy with it, and feeling as though it is never completed.

Secondly I believe the other problem is that I don't want to get personal. I'm a very private person and I don't like to give to much away about myself. Yet this leads to a number of problems;

• It totally corrupts the creative process and leads to opinions and ideas being stifled and filtered.
• Also no one knows who I am. I don't have a online nor a professional identity that is known.
• In not wanting praise for my work no one even knows who completed it, and I don't get more work from it.

Therefore I have no work, no money and no one knows me, Purely because I am not putting myself out there. This is a problem!!!
I need to say hey world this is me and this is what I can do. Otherwise I'll never get anywhere.

Navel Gazing

Have you missed me?
I have taken the last couple of weeks off to do some thinking. I have even had a few days away from the computer. I felt I needed this time. I needed to figure lots of things out. I still need to figure out heaps more, yet I think I am nearly on the right path now.
I will be discussing some of the things that I have been thinking about and some of the decisions that I have made over the next couple of days.

Geeky Bits³
Today I want to touch on the topic of my blog: Geekybits. One of the things that I wanted to figure out was exactly what my blog is for. At the moment I feel as though it's is all over the place, even I'm not sure what it is about.
This is not good!
It makes things hard on me and you! So from now on I am going to keep my blog for the purpose of expressing my opinion to my readers. Although I think that I will still do the occasional review, I want to keep things on topic. I want this to be a place to express myself, especially my geeky bits :)
I don't think this will be a very huge change, and it should make life easier on everyone concerned.
I hope you continue reading ... Cheers Kris